Warning, long blog post coming up, making up for lost time, so to speak.
I’ve had to do a so what kind of thing and stop worrying about whether taking down my blog almost a week ago was the right thing to do. I had to, blog scrapers were going mad with my RSS feed and putting my content all over the place it was stupid. Had me writing cease and desist letters.
My stories were appearing everywhere. Call it controlling on my part, but it’s my written work they have up on their crappy websites, some of which took me a while to create. But imitation is a form of flattery…if they thought it was good enough to steal I guess that’s a compliment sort of. I will put some of the content back up, gradually, so RSS subscribers be prepared for your feed to increase in the next few hours, weeks, days, months.
And then there was the issue of the ex-community reading my blog, the ex-lover, an ex-encounter, the, I wish I had never fucking gone there…please give me back the pussy that you enjoyed. Well you get what I mean, don’t you? This is not to say all in the ex-zone are crazy nutheads, far from it, well those considered to be special, truly know that this is not applicable to them.
This is the thing when you share your blog with anyone you date or are casual with, it’s like they have open access to your thoughts…silly move on my part. But then again, read if you want, I can’t stop you, I really can’t.
It’s a love hate thing with my blog, if you have an encounter with me, it’s up to me whether I blog about it or not, you do know that, which is why for now my blog won’t get mentioned if I go on future dates or have any more encounters. Then there are the men who want me to blog about them…
Why I’m Still Here
In my brief hiatus I came across women who were blogging in their 70′s, and I was completely blown away by their honesty and life experiences. They have gone through major shit and lived to tell the tale. Their courage and wisdom inspired me to just reevaluate, realign and review. So here I am almost 5 days later and I’m not sure where I’ll be going with the blog this time, after all I think this is the 3rd time that I’ve brought the blog back this year alone!!
What started out as a hobby for me has become so much more and there were times when I read old blog posts and thought did I write that, did I do that. Having your ideas, thoughts and fantasies up for everyone to see, is not easy.
Gone are my concerns about who reads and possibly wanks to my blog (when they are not on the receiving end, strap on pun intended). I know what the perils of being a sex blogger are, I know that it can be difficult to date whilst having a sex blog. I know that men sometimes expect me to become Mistress Black when I’m out on a date, that’s on my terms sweetheart.
I have learnt whilst some men applauded me for my openness, there were a few who had issues with my sexuality. To the men with the double standards, to them I say loudly “Fuck Off”, there is so much hypocrisy about female sexuality, especially the sexuality of black women.
Totally lost count of the men who tried to slut shame me because of my blog, my fantasies, my experiences. Notice the constant use of my!! They are and were MY experiences. I have learnt not to apologise for who I am and what sex means to me. And whilst I write about the most kinkiest of things it does not mean that I am without feelings or morals either… yeah I have had my mad crazy I don’t give a fuck moments (cough, cough I sent them back home didn’t I). But I’m not up for meeting up and fulfilling every male blog reader’s sexual fantasy. Most of the material on here is wankrotica, surely that’s enough.
But…
I’ve blogged about UK Black Swingers, Black Women and White Men, Butches and Femmes, Gay Thugs and a Dutty Pastor. This blog has been a source of creativity. I’ve told stories based on some very amazing experiences and while others, let’s just say I have a vivid imagination.
There are readers that have read all of my old blogs too before I put them all into Black, Kinky and Proud, seriously I cannot thank you enough. And for the readers who subscribe, again a massive thank you. Way back when I wrote my first blog post, I had no idea that anyone would read it.
Having discovered slow blogging, I might just do that, blog when I have something to say.
Enough said, and that is why I’m still here.
Kinky Blessings
Pashun Nate
