I’m officially horny, so my apologies to the person who I was texting at the early hours this morning, when I’m horny, I’m like that, no harm intended, no offence taken I hope.
This makes me think that my libido is back cranked up and raring to go, I recently found myself doubting whether I was sexy or not. My self-esteem was not what it should have been.
As a full-figured woman I feel that I have a lot to offer not just in terms of my sensual curves, hips and lips but the whole package (for you arse worshippers, I got arse for days).
Sexually as I have said before in my Sex An Education post, I’m at my peak.
So without a current lover, where does this leave me? In a perpetual state of horniness…not to say that I have not had any release, fuck was that good…but I want something regular.
I’m not talking walk down me down the aisle and get married shit, wifey material I am not, way to claustrophobic for my liking is marriage. Although, I have been told if I meet the right person it will fall into place. Hmm, we’ll see.
What am I saying? What I’m saying is that as a sexual, erotica writing, pornrotica blogging chica, my sexual partner/s have to like what I do.
There is no point in being with someone if they are not interested in what I am about, it never works.
I had to unlearn every damn thing and educate myself sexually, apparently I am not as hardwired to dick as I thought I was, I swing both ways remember. I’m a trysexual, if I like it I will try it.
With that said, who am I looking to play with, a man, a woman, or in fact why not both.There is nothing to stop me from having more than one lover, it might actually be better for me.
Having a choice, seems good.
Here comes the hard part, where am I going to find these partners? If you have been
reading my blog for a while, you know that I love to chart my experiences, so this is where is the whole concept of Black, Kinky and Proud will change.
I will be blogging for the next month or so about my quest to find Mr and Mrs “I’ll Fuck You For Now”. This could be interesting, it could be a waste of blog space, but who knows, life is never dull…
Now, I’ll have to make up some rules. I have an awful habit of trying to create a regular fuck into a relationship, caught myself catching feelings, thought it was love on a few occassions.
Am I going to be able to stick with them: no cooking meals, no staying at my place, no getting involved in personal stuff, when we are clearly just fucking, no “So where were you last night” questions.
Can I really do this, because I love to throw down in the kitchen, nothing satisfies me more than seeing someone enjoying what I have cooked, so I might have to bend this a little bit, like if they are reciprocal, willing to cook for me too, we could have something there… I have a romantic side (or am I getting this twisted with dating).
Mmm, a playmate who cooks, is erotic and romantic? Fuck I’m asking for too much.
An ex playmate of mine, broke it down for me, he said that when we were fucking, I gave him some kinky, freaky, damn I need to fuck you right now, kind of sex. But when we fell for each other, it got twisted, we found out that we are not relationship material.
So there lies the rub for me, do I keep it casual and just enjoy the sex…or wait for the right person to come along?
Fuck it…this is sex blogging, time for me to have some fun.
