When I first started writing, it really was a way to express and explore my sexuality safely.
I became stronger and played with language in a way that I had not been previously comfortable with. I had uttered the word “Fuck” many a time whilst having great sex, but the so called “dirty words” took a while to fall out of my mouth.
I was overly concerned with being what some call a “good girl” and the fact that I swear and get raw meant that I was the complete opposite.
A man who I cared about a lot said that swearing was not for me. I listened to him and I thought about it.
But then I had a sexual experience that changed my life forever, we were just about to burst, you know that feeling you get when orgasm is just around the corner? Well my lover asked me to let go:
Just let go
I can’t, baby, I can’t
Try
Ok, I love it when you fuck me
I love fucking you, I love having sex with you
Sometimes we fuck, sometimes we make love, sometimes we have sex
Baby that’s right
Say anything you want
Alright, I want you to fuck me, I want you to fuck me really hard
Throughout my blog , you will see that I have a mix of erotica, poetry and music. As well as the stories that really go all out to explore, fantasy, fetish, lust and porn.
So am I really writing pornrotica? I think I am.
Words are extremely powerful, they can either uplift and motivate or be used to repress and judge. I am not a saint with a halo, I used to think I was and that was where the trouble began.
It would take me several blog posts to tell you how I really got to this point in my life, the purpose and why I am here.
But all I know that it has taken strength, courage, support and love to accept that this is who I am.
Saying fuck, cunt, pussy, and cock, reflecting on the rawness, the explicit – acknowledging that in sex there really is not a standard form, is what this blog is about.
There are lovers that will bring out the inner vixen, slut and freak in me. Why because they challenged me to be free.
My fearlessness is expressed by the way I choose to love. I can be the most gentle, loving and caring woman then I can switch it up and the kink takes over, then out come the vibrators, handcuffs, whips, lubes, porn, leather basques and anal beads.
I often think that the reason why I am without a lover at present is because I simply have not met the right fit that’s all, or at least right enough for now.
As always I am forever looking back at previous blog entries and thinking what can I write about next, sometimes I run out of steam and take a break because believe it or not sex is not automatic with me.
Celibacy makes you think, it makes me think about the kind of love and sex that I would like to experience in the future.
There is intimacy in kink, fetish, sex, love and fucking.
When I am screaming “Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me” to a lover it is because at that point in time, that is what I need and want.
My love for them is clear, the bond and connection I feel with them so strong that I am able to be myself. I have reached a state where my pleasure has fused with theirs and it has moved beyond sex, we are fucking plain and simple.
The encounter probably started off romantically, candles and rose petals and the intimacy was there, we continued to the sensual lovemaking and then worked our way right up to hard and fast thrusts.
When a man has his cock in my pussy and I am screaming and moaning, grabbing my pillows and we are soaking wet from sweat, that is fucking.
I am a black woman who was once shy and scared of her sexuality but broke out after rubbing a guy’s cock to orgasm at a party.
Sex is fluid there is not a one size fits all, if there was just think how limited and boring our lives would be.
What I write here is from the heart, I fought to reclaim my sexuality, I pushed past all of the bullshit and what women are supposed to be like.
I’ve had committed relationships, casual sex, cybersex, phone sex, text sex and I’ve watched men wank off on webcams.
I like to fuck.
Fucking is when you break all the rules and you are not worried about how you look and what you say, it is raw and explicit.
