It is 4am and I should be tucked up in bed sleeping, but I can’t, my mind is on a particular person – a man I was in love with.
Have you ever wanted someone so bad and no matter how hard you tried, the situation never worked out?
Maybe it was silly of me to think that I could just forget about him, forget the way I felt when he was around me and that smile of his.
I wanted to tell him how I really felt but I was too scared, what if I got it wrong, what if he wasn’t really into me. So instead of taking a risk, I just waited and waited and nothing happened.
But then I told myself if it was meant to be then it would have happened and that I should just move on.
Yet, there was a connection, I am sure there was but it was all so complicated.
How can I move forward, if I keep on looking back and thinking of him. Right now, all I know is until he is out of my system, out of my head I can’t be with anyone else.
I’ll always be comparing a new man to him, which is stupid really because we never had a relationship, it is just the way that he was with me was just so beautiful.
This is crazy, I wish I could say more, but I can’t, I think I have said too much already.
Meeting the right person at the wrong time is something that I thought would never happen to me.
I learnt something from this though, there is no reason for me to go looking for love, he entered my life when I least expected it.
