I have had some good sex in my lifetime even though I am experiencing a dry spell at the moment. I’ll have sex again.
Recently I have been asking myself, is sex all I want. Having played with both older and younger lovers, do I really want to go through the whole process of looking?
While I have had pleasurable encounters, you can read more about them on my Nasty Black Chick blog – I often missed the deep connection that I experienced with others.
Fuck buddies are great when you need them, you can grind each other senseless and walk away safe in the knowledge that you are both fucking in accordance to an arrangement.
But what happens if one of the buddies falls in love. What then?
I have proven to myself on many occasions that I have the ability to “Fuck n Go” and probably to the delight of the men, I fucked with.
Somewhere in the midst of my casual encounters I heard that if a man closes his eyes during sex, that it is not sex, it is “fucking” and that the man could be thinking of another.
Well, I see nothing wrong with that. In many ways I have had to think of something else, especially when the person giving me a seeing to was not pressing the right buttons.
If I had to describe one of the most intimate moments I have had, it would most definitely be the day I realised I was in lust and love with one of my partners.
We were at the end of a heavy session; I had fucked him with every sex toy in our collection, caressed nipples and pinched them, placed kisses on his legs and back.
He in return stroked me gently to orgasm and watched me while I came several times. I begged for him to fuck me in the arse and this time it was different, instead of him going really fast he slowed right down.
Afterwards I looked at my lover and he looked at me and I thought “I don’t want to do this with anyone else”.
Fetish and kink for me is not all ball busting, whips, handcuffs, restraint and chains – it goes behind the hard fuck, slap,thrust, submission and domination. I think intimacy can be a part of it.
When I share myself with a lover, I need to be able to trust them before I delve into my sexual preferences. There are some sexual acts that I will only do with certain people, simply because I know that they understand my needs.
My deepest desire is to meet my match, someone who I can explore the realms of my kinkiness.
A Kinkster’s Wish
As midnight approaches
You sit with your whip
placed firmly in your hand
I feel the sharp sting of leather
My hands tied so I cannot move
Only you can control me
Your breath against my neck
Our vocal exchange of
Slut, whore and cunt
You licking me
Until
I
Come
The sweat from your brow
falling to the floor
And me begging you not to stop
You fucking me hard without mercy
This is my desire
This is my kinkster’s wish
Pashun Nate
So there you have it, a rather long post. Another side of me, I am not always hard and raw, there is so much more to my sexuality than that. I really want to get into writing poetry and erotica, my dream is to self publish a set of fetish based stories – who knows?
